Happy 2nd month birthday!
I watch you content in a swing. You lay there as you wait for us to get you. I come back upstairs when you awake. I hold you close to feed while I talk to your brothers. I try to stop so as to recognize and enjoy our alone times that we get throughout our days. Through it all, I am amazed at how perfectly content you are when you are missing out on so much.
You have opened my eyes. I won't ever tell you. "I wish you could just stay little." You see, when your oldest brother, Matthew, was your age, I literally cried over how fast time was going. I felt as though time was the enemy that I couldn't control. Its purpose was to rob me of my nows. Why must it be said of everything, "This too shall pass."? I spent more time waiting for this time to come than I ever get to spend enjoying it! -- I no longer see things this way. I have learned a secret! When I enjoy you, I savor my nows...all of them. When I live my life poured out toward you, I am filled up. When I give, I get. So, while I look forward to the day when you are no longer waiting for someone to pick you up, it isn't because I don't want to carry you but because I already know the joy YOU will experience when you start to grow in your own independent mobility!
I do greatly enjoy today! I love having you as my constant companion to ask and talk to, go over the day, sing to and hear you sing back. I am so immensely grateful for today but I know you will enjoy tomorrow more than you could possibly enjoy today! So, I look forward to all your future first...even if it means that your firsts come at the cost of my lasts. While that sounds like I could get sentimental, I don't mean to. What I mean is, I am so full of excitement and expectancy when it comes to the days ahead for you that I can hold you close and snuggle today, enjoying this moment and excitedly expecting the ones to come.
I want to get to know you. What kind of car or truck will YOU want? Your brother Gabriel wants a BIG red truck with large tires and a grill! He doesn't want it to be really loud...but maybe a little loud...that he says, would be okay. I look forward to knowing all the trucks you will like....or cars if that is your preference. I look forward to learning right along side you. Your brother Matthew is very interested in geography. I so enjoy being interested in what you all are interested in. Just name it and we can explore it! I look forward to these days ahead with you.
What will you like to do? How will you approach situations? Will you want to hold my hand everywhere or will you be eager to run off? Either way, I just want to get to know you. A sweet friend said her favorite quote concerning children is, "Little children are not clay to mold but rather little people to unfold." I want to be there to watch you and help you so that eventually you will grow and mature enough to be able to complete the unfolding process. What will it look like when you reach full bloom of what all God created you to be? There is so much wonder in God. There is so much wonder in life. There is so much wonder wrapped up in you. It thrills me to see the wonder I have become your own. I want to see you wonder!! I want to see you dream! I want to see you see your dreams become a reality! You and your brothers are one of my dreams that have become a reality. Soon, it will be your turn to dream...dream big! We serve a big God. When babies were said to be an impossibility, I've now had 4...with you being my 4th. So, dream BIG!! ...AND, when your big dream comes to pass, dream even bigger. Never stop dreaming, never stop seeing, never stop reaching!
I do greatly enjoy today! I love having you as my constant companion to ask and talk to, go over the day, sing to and hear you sing back. I am so immensely grateful for today but I know you will enjoy tomorrow more than you could possibly enjoy today! So, I look forward to all your future first...even if it means that your firsts come at the cost of my lasts. While that sounds like I could get sentimental, I don't mean to. What I mean is, I am so full of excitement and expectancy when it comes to the days ahead for you that I can hold you close and snuggle today, enjoying this moment and excitedly expecting the ones to come.
I want to get to know you. What kind of car or truck will YOU want? Your brother Gabriel wants a BIG red truck with large tires and a grill! He doesn't want it to be really loud...but maybe a little loud...that he says, would be okay. I look forward to knowing all the trucks you will like....or cars if that is your preference. I look forward to learning right along side you. Your brother Matthew is very interested in geography. I so enjoy being interested in what you all are interested in. Just name it and we can explore it! I look forward to these days ahead with you.
What will you like to do? How will you approach situations? Will you want to hold my hand everywhere or will you be eager to run off? Either way, I just want to get to know you. A sweet friend said her favorite quote concerning children is, "Little children are not clay to mold but rather little people to unfold." I want to be there to watch you and help you so that eventually you will grow and mature enough to be able to complete the unfolding process. What will it look like when you reach full bloom of what all God created you to be? There is so much wonder in God. There is so much wonder in life. There is so much wonder wrapped up in you. It thrills me to see the wonder I have become your own. I want to see you wonder!! I want to see you dream! I want to see you see your dreams become a reality! You and your brothers are one of my dreams that have become a reality. Soon, it will be your turn to dream...dream big! We serve a big God. When babies were said to be an impossibility, I've now had 4...with you being my 4th. So, dream BIG!! ...AND, when your big dream comes to pass, dream even bigger. Never stop dreaming, never stop seeing, never stop reaching!
It really does get better as time goes on...and it would be incredibly selfish of me to even wish to rob you of a day where you didn't get to experience the every increasing "more" that awaits you!
Happy 2 month birthday.
Love, Mom
Love, Mom
